I remember this time last year, we had Kyle's parents and grandparents over for dinner to announce that we were expecting a baby. We asked Kyle's mom what she would be doing in May... because that was when the baby would be here. I remember the look on their faces when we told them. Roberta was so excited and she squeeled with joy. Bill just kept chewing with the funniest look on his face. It is a memory that I will hold in my heart forever. But Roberta wouldn't be here in May.
I have been struggling with the fact that Roberta's not coming back. She isn't here for the so many things I was looking forward to. I thought she would be here when I became a mother. I needed her to give me advice along this journey of parenthood. She did such an amazing job raising her two boys. I hope to be half the mother that she was.
Why did God take her of all people? We all loved her so much. She was one of the most kindest people that I ever met. She was such an amazing listener, but gave me the wisest of words when necessary. I feel like she will just walk back in the door one of these days. I have dreams about it. I keep hoping that will happen.
She was always buying children's books for her future grandkids. I thought she was funny, as I was not even thinking children yet. One of the books she bought is "Grandma Read to Me". Everytime I look at it, it kills me. She isn't here to read to Isabelle. Why? Why God?
We are all having a hard time now that it is fall. Summer we are always so busy, but the fall is when things slow down and we do alot more family get togethers. I remember coming over to carve pumpkins with Bill and Roberta. It's alot of "first times" without her now... and it's rough.
I know that the world is just temporary and God has great things in store for us. I know all of the right answers but it doesn't make it easy. I want her back. I see Roberta in Isabelle. Izzi has a quiet and gentle spirit and she is dainty...like her grandma. Roberta was such a beautiful person. We will carry on her legacy of loving people for who they are and always having something positive to say. We miss her more than words can say.
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